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Ok, I'm a litttle late, it's Friday...

Love:

Gabby and I are feeling better.

I'm slowly starting to taste my food again.

Gabby has brushed her teeth before bed 2 nights in a row.

Seattle has a couple of clear and sunny days.

My pedicure and how pretty my toes look.

Airborne.

Loathe:

I woke up last night and heard thunder and wanted to cry! I was scurred!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was really sick on Halloween so I missed my Zumba party.

My underwear is old. LOL

Today was one of those overwhelming days. I’m sad. I’m drained. It’s a start of a new month, I couldn’t wait for October to be over actually, then what do you know, I end the month with getting sick. Not only me, Gabby too. I take yesterday off and return to a shit load of work today. November can be great, but it’s also my review time.

Since I’m sick, I wanted to toss my lunch to the side and order Pho to go.

They insisted my sauces were in the bag and they weren’t. That ruined my day from there.

Coming back from lunch in a bad mood maybe isn’t the best idea.

I received my statement from one of my attorneys and I just wanted to cry. A couple of hours later I get a call from an IRS agent regarding my case, then I get a call from my tax attorney, then I still have 16 hours worth of work to do but only 30 minutes left in my day and I still never took my last 15 minute break. My ex wants me to drive to his house to pick up Gabby since he watched her today so that an additional 15 miles for me or so which means I just about used a ¼ tank of gas to get her to Seattle today because she is sick and I couldn’t take another day off to stay home with her.

And when I picked her up, I had been crying my whole way there because sometimes crying just feels so damn relieving and I have to let the tears fall, and I was so happy to see her and when she got in the car she was upset and she said she wanted Daddy.

That can really hurt when Mommy is having a bad day, you know.

I continued to cry my whole drive home and she ended up falling asleep.

The evening went well though. She was the Sous Chef as we made ground turkey tacos and she handed me the onions I had already chopped up in a ziplock and the pepper and we watched Disney and ate peaches and then I read her a bedtime story as I made chicken for tomorrow nights dinner.

I wish someone would read me a bedtime story. It would start something like this:

One day Kristina will be driving home to a life that is better than it is now. Kristina will have her own place and will rebuild herself financially and emotionally and will not always have a gas guzzler. Gabby will be happy to see you and your hungry hungry boyfriend will eat all of your cooking and then kiss you after every meal, I wish I could tell you all of your dishes will be done, but then that would be a fairytale….

And I don’t want a fairytale, I just want a bedtime story that makes me sleep peacefully at night

I have always enjoyed reality TV when it's of a competition nature such as The Apprentice or Rock of Love,etc. When I first saw Jon and Kate plus 8, I thought this shit is crazy, with 8 kids how does one update a FB status, or make time to make love, or even comb their own hair.

I remember seeing the episode where it was Jon's 30th birthday and they went out for dinner with all them 8 kids and I wondered if he wished he was in a different place for his 30th. I don't know too much about them, like were they a couple who has tried and tried for kids and then one day they were blessed, etc..

But what I do know something about is divorce and seperation and I think the Gosselins are going about it all wrong.

I was watching the Insider the other night and Hailey Glassman was the one who they were picking apart that night. *next week it's Levi, leave that fine looking young man alone Sarah Palin...* but anyways, they polled whoever, America that watched the show I guess and 91 percent thought Hailey should break up with Jon.

She's what...23??? he's probably 31...32...with 8 kids to worry about.... I dont know...91 percent says dump his ass. I think she should dump his ass. She will not be around in the future. She has pictures of herself on FB for christ sake with blunts and falling over plants and she wants to be Jon Gosselins longtime girlfriend, which would mean one day being step mom to 8 kids? Um...no..

I get the impression America hates Kate. I don't hate Kate. I think Kate speaks her mind, I do think she does cut Jon off before when he was speaking but it's his fault for not sticking up for himself. Kate or any mother going thru a divorce would not want the potential step mom to be holding blunts and posting the shit on FB. And everytime I see Jon with damn sunglasses and some new desginer tshirt, he gets on my nerves more and more. *which btw..Jon, since you have so much money, buy some damn sun screen, you don't tan as easily as you think...*

The Gosselins have 8 blessings, 8 chances to make the world a better place, 8 future somebodies in this world but right now Reality TV and their money has somehow screwed with the truth.

Jon and Kate- You guys aint shit. Turn off the camera's and deal with divorce like the rest of us here and worry about your children. Kate, your bitterness will pass...your hair will grow and some real MAN will step up to the plate and love you.. and Jon...you're dating "girls" because "women"think you are pathetic. Hailey- go to college, pose for Playboy or something, stay off the weed and if  you really want to be in the lyme light...let it be for a good a reason.

Advice for the day: 1. Don't get married. 2. Don't have 8 kids.  

Halloween's come and gone and you know that that means... Time for holiday decorations! What does your city or town do to decorate each year that you most look forward to?

In Seattle, they light the Christmas Tree every year in Westlake Center. It's cool. I've taken Gabby there before and she really liked it. I really enjoy the lights on 5th Avenue.

My Costume is Lady Gaga with Kermit ,VMA Awards...I made my headpiece and used adhesive glue..and I think it got me high for a little bit..LOL

Lady Gaga

Love it or Loathe it, it's actually Wednesday!

Love:

That I finally got my Vegas tickets.

The Katsu Curry I made.

Zumba on Tuesday's.

Sharing.

Truth.

Eyeshadow when I put it on properly.

Dry weather.

My tax attorney.

The Halloween costume I'm doin gthis year.

Loathe:

Heavy rain that soaks my shoes and socks.

Not having gloves when it's freezing outside in the morning.

That I really want to try this Tapas restaurant and I have no one to go with.

Have you ever returned an item to a store for a refund after having used it?

Yea..yea...I have. I'm gonna be really honest here with my list.

• Prom shoes
• A shirt I wore to the club *when I was 19 or something*
• A pregnancy test. *it was negative...*

It’s October 26^th and of us now I am still single. I started to get lonely for the first time in awhile. What brought it on exactly was that I have attended some parties lately and I seem to be the only one not showing up with someone.

I rhink what I miss most though, more than sex is friendship. Being able to talk to someone and share simple things like how my day went or watching movies and just plain chillin. At one party, I ran into a person who I knew before from my ex. We were talking and later that night he was the first guy I thought about in a long time for more than one hour. I started thinking what is the rule exactly to dating someone that knows your ex and when is it a no-no.

I decided to use the method of how would I feel if it were me. First of all, they don’t hang out. They associated in the same car club back in the day, but the 8 years my ex and I were together, these 2 weren’t buddy buddy.

As conversation went on, he started telling me how he was having a baby in January, basically from a girl who was a friend with benefits and they are not together. All of sudden I saw a stop sign.

I really don’t want to get caught up in that…..

I started to think of new ways to meet people.

I don’t go out much. My life is pretty routine. I go to work, I go to the gym, I take Gabby to her dance classes and sometimes I go out to dinner.

My first weekend out in awhile and I went to the Jay-Z concert. There was a ton of guys there, but of course did I talk to any of them? No.

We didn’t go clubbing afterwards, which was fine with me, I was tired anyways.

But here we go back to my life is pretty routine. Work and gym.

I have opened my eyes to some guys at the gym but this is the thing. I don’t want to be that girl who tries to talk to all the guys. Because first of all, that’s not me. Second, I love my gym and I aint giving it up because a relationship went bad or something stupid like that.

I view the gym as a positive place because first of all someone will see I’m a mom. And they can make that mental note before they engage in conversation with me if they have dating intentions in mind.

I have thought a lot about what kind of guy I’m looking for. I think it’d be so cool to find someone with kids *though if they got a bitch for a baby’s mama then…erm..um…I’ll rethink that*

But realistically, not everyone has kids and I can’t rule out the guys who don’t. But Gabby is my life and I need someone to respect that and appreciate that.

I’m also trying real hard to step out the box and not date a Filipino or an Asian for that matter. * I say that now but you know at the Jay-Z concert, well….there was this FINE Filipino guy..and um…*

But seriously, I think I need to have an open mind.

Is this bad? There’s 2 guys that I have noticed. I’m too scared to start a conversation so I have created nicknames for them One is Iron Man Jay. I doubt his name is really Jay, but I must say, he has some muscles. He lifts like 2 or 3 times a week and in my opinion, he has a body like a cop.

The last one,* I nicknamed him tonight actually,* is New York. Why?

He’s tall, dark and handsome and reminds me of New York when I went there. He may be Latino or Italian. I’m not sure. I’ve heard him talk *not to me* but he doesn’t have an accent.

I don’t know….

I think I’m thinking about the dating thing too hard and I’m trying too hard. Or maybe I’m not trying enough. L

Love:

My boss believes in me, she says I'm driven.

Jay-Z concert this weekend! What to wear?!?!?!?!

This cookie I ate today with chocolate in the middle.

Getting unfinished business taken care of.

My therapist thinks I'm ready to date and so do I, unfortunately, I'm looking for a committed relationship, "Good luck with dat..."

My outfit today.

I'm eating Indian food this week with my best friend.

My best friend let me use her iPod shuffle since she doesn't use it and mine was stolen.

In the midst of it all, I know things will get better for me.

Cold but dry weather.

Dunkin Donuts coffee.

I told my coworkers that I failed my CPC exam by 1 percent, *69 percent* and when they said that is still a good score, I said,"Yea, 69 is great." and they totally took it the wrong way and it made them laugh. I was  talking bout the score, I'm not sure what they thinking. :)

Reggaeton.

Loathe:

Eh... I don't wanna think about loathing today.

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When I was about 8 years old, I remember my mom was on the phone with her sister and she had asked to talk to me. I got on the phone and she started telling me how when she was "away", it was because she recovering fom being on drugs and asked if I knew what drugs were.

At that age and especially because I went to a Catholic school, I was very sheltered and all I knew was my parents said "drugs were bad" and when people steal, it for drug money,etc. I remember the commercials growing up when the chick cracks the egg over the frying pan and says, "This is your brain on drugs."

My moms sister explained to me that drugs were bad and she had started when she was in middle school. Which at the time she was talking to me, she had to have been in her 30's. *So most of her adult life*. I remember that we went to visit her at Shick Shadel, which is a rehab located here in Seattle.

I thought her life was changed because she eventually married and had 2 sons. She started going to church as well and talked about God with my mom. Then over the years things to started to get weird. I was close with my grandmother when she was alive. And one day she was upset and she had told that she was unable to see her grandkids from the sisters side of the family and that she was saying my grandmother abused her at one time or something to that extent. In my grandmothers defense, she was strict in her ways and didnt take no shit from me and my brother- but I never remember abuse. So as a teenager, I had to ask myself, was my aunt making these things up because her mind was so messed up from all the years on drugs.

Then one day, I think I was 19 at the time, I came home and my mother told me, in tears that her sister was found in a hotel room and had shot herself in the head.

You probably wonder why I refer to her as "my moms sister" but after she committed suicide, she was no longer my aunt who cooked a bomb steak for me or who named me as a baby when I was born. She was now a selfish person who left behind a husband who loved her and 2 sons, my cousins I guess, and a mother and sister who loved her dearly.

I remember I heard a statistic that a child is more likely to kill themselve if they have had a parent or knew someone close to them who committed suicide. How dare she, I've thought that way for years. Did she not consider the well being for her sons?

I was looking thru old photos a couple of months ago and I saw a picture of her with one of her ex's, it was like a holiday party or something, and they were all smoking weed. It looked like a photo trailer for a Cheech and Chong movie fo realz..* shaking head*