13 posts from 2007

I am extremely excited to be moving.  Granted, it's the second move in less than a month.  But I am leaving behind both Seattle and Houston, for the cute, tiny little city of Jacksonville.  I got a kick-ass job in downtown J-ville, in the Wachovia building.  I got a great, adorable apartment which is right next door to one of my best friends.  And I already met a new boy there, that I am started to be interested in already!!  I am back in Houston for the next 4 days, getting ready to move, but then, I will officially be a Jacksonville resident!!!  

I am so excited!  I successfully got a new job, in a completely different career field.  I went from being an Acupuncturist to being a Mortgage Loan Officer.  Granted, it's a risky time to be entering the financial services industry, especially working for a mortgage lender.  But I needed a place to start, someplace to get my foot in the door.  I might make very little or no money in the next year.  But next year, my resume will have a very cool addition of working a good job in financial services and not being some "woo woo" alternative healthcare practitioner.  It might be extremely risky, but right now, it's the chance of a lifetime for someone wanting to jump ship.  And who knows, it might end up being extremely profitable!  It's a gamble, but a gamble I am totally ready for.  Bring it on!!

I don't know how to say this without sounding conceited or bitchy.  But why can't I have a fucking conversation with a guy without him ending up hitting on me, asking me on a date, or wanting my phone number?  Can't we just chat for the sake of chatting??  Have we all lost the art of polite conversation?  Does it always have to end up leading to some sort of sexual connection?

Why are men like this?  It can't just be me.

But come on, I just relocated across the country and I don't know anyone here.  I am trying to get out and meet people, talk to people, because I want to make new friends and meet new people.  I am not looking to get fucked here.  Hell, I don't mind talking with good looking men, but I have no interest in getting a new boyfriend right now.  I will flirt and be friends, perhaps even want to get together again.  But I am not going to talk to someone for 20 minutes and then make out with them.  Well, maybe in my mid-twenties I would have.  But not anymore.

Maybe it's just this area.  The Houston area, I have noticed, is a lot more men then women.  I mean, the singles scene was extremely difficult in Seattle and that is what I have been used to for the past 10 years.  I could have walked into a bar completely naked and men wouldn't have even looked up from their beer.  But now here, I can't even go to Starbuck's in my gym clothes with no make-up on and not get hit on.  WTF?!  I think I hit the single girl jackpot.  The problem is, I just don't really like anyone.

But for any single girl in Seattle who is not getting any action.... move here.  You couldn't keep them away if you wanted to.  But just remember.....  You never get the one you want, and the ones you don't want, you can't get away from.

For the last almost 7 years I have worked as an Acupuncturist in the Seattle area.  But recently I have relocated to Houston.  I am taking this opportunity to change career fields.  But I am having problems putting together my resume.  I did a lot more than just acupuncture when I ran my own clinic.  But I don't really know which direction to focus in, and how much to stretch the truth or put a "spin" on my resume.  I know it's a tough job market overall, but it seems like it is going to be harder for someone who has had alternative healthcare as their main experience for the past 7 years, and is now wanting to go into the banking or finance industry.  An industry which is struggling more than the rest of the economy overall.  The last time I used my finance degree was in the late 90's, so it's going to be a struggle.  With that said, I don't know how much of a spin I need to put on my resume.  It's a tough thing to consider.

So it's been a few weeks since I posted anything.  It's been a crazy few weeks.  I moved from Seattle to Houston, Texas.  It was a huge move for me, the biggest I have ever made.  I packed all my stuff into a U-Haul and drove it here myself.  Over the Rockies and everything.  I was super intimidated to do it, but now that it's done,  I don't think it was that big of a move.  I would and could do it again quite easily.

It's been nice to be here in the Houston area.  It's really nice weather in the last week.  So much better than the doom and gloom of Seattle in October thru April.  As I am writing this it is 9pm and 72 degrees outside on Halloween.  So that is nice for me, I got horribly effected by the dark and rain before.

But it has been weird being around my family again.  I haven't been around my mother on a regular basis since I was 17.  So it's sort of like hanging out with this older woman who I don't really know all that well.  But I miss all my friends and everyone in the NW a lot.  I miss just hanging out with people.  I don't know anyone here but my family, and that gets old real quick.  But overall, I am very glad I did the move.

I have been in a long distance relationship with a guy who lives in The Netherlands for the past year.  I went out recently in September, which was when he told me he wasn’t ready to make a commitment yet.  But didn’t want to see anyone else, and didn’t want me to see anyone else.  He just wanted to continue things the way they were, with him there and me here.  I have been second-guessing the entire relationship since.

I am also leaving Seattle in 2 weeks, I am moving in with my family in Houston, Texas.  I have already quit my job and am about half packed and very ready to go.  I don’t have a job lined up yet, and will probably start looking in January, take it easy through the holidays and just distress from all the crap I have been through in the past couple years.

So yesterday he and I were talking on the phone.  He said he wants me to come out for like a month or so.  Like come out at the end of November or in early December and stay through New Years.  He wants to just find out how we function as a normal, daily couple.  With him going to work during the day and me doing stuff like working out, taking care of the house, and continue doing my online investing (which I can do anywhere).   He thinks it would be a good time to find out what it will be like when we get married.  He also made an appointment with a mortgage officer at his local bank and got pre-approved for a mortgage.  He wants us to look at houses when I am there.

I am like, Holy Shit.  This from a guy who said he didn’t want to make any plans for the future with me.  It seems like a complete 180, that came along without any real reason for change.  I mean, there really hasn’t been anything going on with us lately.  No big talks, no anything really.  He said that after I came home, he realizes how empty his life is and how much he really wants me to be a part of it.

I don’t know what to think of this.  Part of me is so excited and is happily fantasizing about how wonderful life would be living with him in Holland.  But the other part is frustrated with how often he changes his mind so extreme.  I don’t trust that he will stay like this for more than a couple of weeks.  He seems to want me more, the more I pull away from him and move on with my life.  But when I am there with him, he sort of freaks out about the entire relationship.

I don’t know if I should go spend time with him there in December or not.  He said he wants to pay for my plane ticket because I am not actively working right now.  Which is sweet.  But at the same time, I could use that time in Houston to be finding a job, getting to know the area, and moving forward with my life.  I am really scared to give him too much at this time.  I tend to get very emotionally involved and get very hurt every time he starts to push me away again.  But on the other hand, I feel like I should go.  I feel that I should do my part to give the relationship a fair chance to work. 

I don’t know what to do.  Protect myself and my emotions, or open myself up to this relationship and the possibility of getting hurt again.  It’s a difficult decision.  I really don’t know what I am going to do.

Monday night I ended up hanging out with one of my exs.  I had a couple things in my apartment that were his and I wanted to give back to him before I left to Texas.  Granted he did walk out on me without warning, in the middle of the night, about a year and a half ago.  But I didn't want to throw stuff away that I knew his parents gave him, I'm just not that cruel.

It was good to see him.  It wasn't awkward at all, it just felt like hanging with an old friend I hadn't seen in a while.  We went to Burger Hut on the Ave.  I hadn't been there before and wanted to try it before I moved.  He recommended it, and I was like Hell Yeah!  We both have a thing for hamburgers.  One time a couple years ago we drove down the Washington and Oregon Coast and back up through Portland visiting both our friends and family.  And during the entire 3 day trip we ate pretty much nothing but hamburgers the entire time.  Most people gross out when they hear that, but we thought it was awesome.  We always had the best vacations.  We spent a week in San Francisco a couple years ago.  I think that trip was probably my favorite vacation, we just had so much fun hanging out together.

On Monday we just went to Burger Hut and then he bought me dessert at B&O espresso, we split the Chocolate Hot Pot.  It's like a chocolate soufflé and it was so F-ing good.  It was good to leave Seattle and him behind with such a positive evening.  We didn't make out or fool around at all.  It was very platonic.  We ended it with a sweet hug.  That's it.  I don't know if it can turn into an actual friendship, but it would be nice.  It really made me feel good to be on positive terms with him.

Are you a registered organ donor?  Why or why not? 
Submitted by jacolily.

Yes, I am a registered organ donor.  I just got in a debate with my guy about this a couple weeks ago.  I believe that if I am dead that I will not be needing my organs.  Hundreds of people everyday die, while waiting for donor organs.  If I can save one or many peoples lives with my organs then I think that is amazing.  If I can do something that doesn't effect me at all, yet at the same time can make a difference between life or death for another person, I could not in good conscious pick death for someone.  My guy said he thought we will need our organs when we are dead.  I asked him to explain, he said he didn't think people would be able to get into heaven if their bodies were not intact.  He thinks people will be stuck in limbo for all eternity if they donate their organs.  My argument against that was, what happens to people who get blown up or something?  He said he thinks they are screwed.  I sort of thought that made him sounded uneducated and unintelligent, but different people have different thoughts and opinions on this topic.  It really brings out a wide variety of ideas.  So I don't pass judgment on other people for their thoughts on this.  I just tend to take a scientific approach.  I just believe, if I am dead, I don't need my organs.  Other people will be able to live with the help of my organs.  So that is something I choose to do.

What are your Major League Baseball playoff predictions?

I don't really follow baseball, but one of my friends that I absolutely love and adore lives in Boston.  HUGE Red Sox fan.  But who in Boston isn't.  So in honor of Shane, I am hoping the Red Sox take it!!  Not that I really know what I am talking about, but that's my prediction.  Not based on anything other than my friends.  :P

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So I have a friend who lives in Florida that I am pretty close with.  But there are a few things about her that really, really bug me.  Now, don't think I am backstabbing her here, I have talked to her about this on several occasions.  This is sort of an ongoing thing with her.

So we talked for about an hour on last Thursday morning.  She had to go because she had to get back to work.  We didn't have much new to talk about, sort of the same old same old with both of us.  Then she called me on Saturday morning, and I tried to call her back, but she was taking a class.  I tried calling her back on Sunday, but she couldn't talk because she was watching football.  So then she calls me on Wednesday morning and I was at the gym.  By the time I get home from the gym, I have 2 voicemails, a text, an email, and a bitchy comment on my myspace page asking why I "fell into a vortex."  I was sort of pissed off.  Because we actually got into it back in August for her doing the exact same thing to me.  I mean, I think I put in a decent amount of effort to be in contact with her.  But she was a little rude about not talking to me over the weekend and practically hanging up on me for calling during the Jags game.  But then when she decides that she needs to be in contact with me on Wednesday, I get shit for being at the gym for 2 hours.

So I ended up deleting the comment on my myspace and waited 24 hours to call her back.  I needed that time to cool off so I wouldn't call her and end up being a total bitch.  And she wasn't there, I left a polite voicemail and as of 6 hours later, no call back.

How does everyone else handle friends like this?